i went for my longest run ever today. it was over 2 hours. the distance doesn’t matter, it wasn’t a race. people often ask me, what do you listen to while running? the truth is, i don’t listen to anything. i don’t take my headphones or my phone (because i hate my phone). i sketch out the route in advance, if there’s some construction, i improvise and adjust. what do i think about when i’m running…

just did two nights in edmonton. first night as felix cartal, 2nd night as glass petals. it was very cool to see the vision of both projects co-existing finally come to life. i dreamt this as a possibility around 2018 when i started Glass Petals. i guess things always take a bit longer than expected, although i’m giving myself a pass on account of the global pandemic that slowed things a bit. the stage setup in edmonton was…

at least that’s how it feels these days. i’ve been working on this song that tegan and I started (of tegan and sara). she cut some vocal in my very basic studio the other day, singing to an old unreleased demo of theirs that i sampled. i really like the idea of the song, writing some new vocal inspired by something old of theirs that i’ve chopped up. a marriage of something past and something new. that feels fresh. however…

been doing felix cartal for 17 years now. which is wild. someone asked me how long i’d been doing it, and i was equally as shocked to hear it as he was once i worked out the math. some days i feel like i’ve learned a lot, and sometimes i feel like i’ve learned nothing at all. shit’s funny like that. one thing i’ve learned…

i’ve always been a bit skeptical of writing a diary about what i’m working on. while i love discussing it verbally with close friends who get the nuance, putting it out there can feel a bit much. i think because in its rawest form, i’m not really sure if what i write one week will even be valid the following week (at least to myself.) but i guess that’s sort of how this business works, you put shit out there, some of it sticks, some of it doesn’t. one thing i do enjoy…

friday was an absolute sweatbox. a success of a night that is hard to put into words. there’s something about these pop ups that feel alive. it’s addicting, overwhelming, and exciting all at the same time. the prep work of getting the space ready all day was daunting. setting up the speakers, figuring out how to light the place, last minute additions like ordering a custom ‘feel less’ sign, realizing at 5pm u need…

what an amazing day on tuesday. we recorded feel less with a live string quartet at warehouse studios. a beautiful arrangement by todor really brought our song to life in a new way. i’m in this constant teetering state of believing in my records while also thinking they could always be better. i think that’s healthy but…

one of my goals this year is to write more music with people who not only inspire me, but support me. Lights has been exactly that since we met in 2018 at the Junos. we made a song that came out the following year called Love Me, and now, exactly 5 years later, we are doing another one called…

today is the first day i’m not really sure what to write since i started doing this weekly in may of 2023. i guess that’s a pretty good run. i’m still here though. i’m still writing. what am i going to do… say nothing at all? sometimes there’s something to be found in the nothingness. i made a deal with myself with music that i’d try to get to the studio 5 days a week, even on the days that i don’t feel it. looking back i guess i don’t really remember the days where i ‘didn’t feel it.’ i’m sure some of those…

i’m working through a lot of songs for the umpteenth time here. a big focus on just arranging things. arrangement can be really frustrating. i don’t know for sure if everything is right. i don’t know if there even is a right?  i did have a breakthrough with a song temporarily titled stay with a breakdown that feels like the whole track dives under water. so i’m happy about that. it’s hard to…

today feels like the first monday in awhile that i got my shit together. i woke up early, went for a 5k run in the below zero degree temperature. it was damn cold, but the feeling after… there’s no better feeling. i think it’s important to do things you don’t want to do. things that not everyone does. it keeps the muscle working. the discipline muscle.  working for yourself is really just discipline. first you work hard enough to break free of…

this year be weirder. find your weirdness and cherish it. nurture it. be thankful for it. if you think you’re taking a chance creatively, push it one step further. love harder, even when it’s the bigger thing to do. laugh harder, especially with those you love to laugh with. don’t worry about those on a journey that doesn’t inspire you. it’s not for you and that’s okay. hang out with friends more. support their work and ask them how they’re…

this next batch of songs is slowly coming together, but i’m almost afraid to go through all the demos i’ve written. i know “a day of organization” is necessary at this point, but every time i get to the studio i am tempted with “just one more demo today before I do that.” maybe i’m afraid there isn’t a real star in the mix yet, i’m not quite sure, but i can’t bring myself to…

I suppose that’s why I like music. At its best it’s extremely rewarding. At its worst it exposes all the insecurities I have. Any lack of self-esteem is brought out by a piss-poor day in the studio. Magnified really. “Love what you do and you never have to work a day in your life.” I guess that’s true in a sense, but it conveniently neglects the days that it’s hard. Sometimes I go back and listen to a random song from my catalog and it’ll break me, it’ll all feel…

“This isn’t live?” a comment in the chat read during the youtube premiere of my skytrain pop-up. It was probably innocuous, but it highlights the fact that you can’t satisfy everyone when doing things. Even free things. Here we are, throwing a free party, and then putting the entire thing on youtube for free to watch, and still someone can be disappointed it’s not live. In these cases I’ve learned…