seasons change
i like that vancouver has seasons. i’m excited that it’s getting darker earlier. i like that i don’t need to have my air conditioner on. the concept of hibernating is alluring. i want to…
am i doing enough?
my album is now about 40 days away from dropping. i think one of the reasons that it was so hard to finish is because i knew this feeling would come once the countdown started: am i doing enough? first…
how i win my day
i have come to the conclusion that every day i must go to war with my phone. it’s the only way i have a shot at winning. a great day for me is running in the morning before i check my phone. i have been raw-dogging…
album five
i announced my fifth album last week. it’s called: i, sabotage. out oct 17. it’s the culmination of about 3 years of work, although some songs may have taken longer. i do often feel that i am the only thing in my own way. i’ve worked hard to develop a mindset and routine to overcome the..
leaning in
it’s weird, i almost feel guilty talking about my new music in this newsletter, because it feels like promotion? and promotion sometimes feels kind of gross to me, even though i know it’s necessary. maybe it’s because we live in this fucked-up-algorithm world now where everyone is promoting something all the time and participating in that charade can feel…
the hard way
last week i ran about 50km. which is kind of insane cause i don’t really feel like i’ve been running particularly more than i usually do. but the numbers on my Garmin watch don’t lie. i guess it’s further proof that…
pop up summer
i missed posting last week. i’m sorry. i’ve been busy! (in a good way.) last weekend in vancouver we attempted the trilogy of beach pop ups. year 3, bigger and better than ever before. unfortunately, the location got shut down before we even started. so…
the number must go up
I’m romantic for an era with less data. An era with records and CD’s where there was no daily play count, but rather just an update from the team every few months that the new song was “doing well!” I actively still try to…
there is no perfect
there is no finish line. there is no done. i hate when people say “when did u feel like you made it?” i think that’s bad semantics. the concept of “making it” implies a finish line. that’s a bad goal when…
the only opponent is me
i would classify myself as a competitive person. i think at times this has been to my detriment, but ultimately it has served me pretty well. i want to improve and do better. as i’ve gotten older though, i’ve learned it’s a lot more valuable to…
i love creating, i hate posting
i hesitate to write this post because i don’t fully have the thoughts worked out yet, but i want to write it to work through it. there’s this strange disconnect that i feel lately…
defying expectations
what’s the artists’ job? to defy expectations i think. hacky art is predictable, the good shit feels like “this isn’t quite what i expected.” it’s always good to remember when working on your shit that you gotta subvert the expectations rather than…
create your own momentum
ah yes, let’s wait to get signed and then the label will tell us what to do? maybe this logic works in a movie, but unfortunately…
vancouver, thank you
Saturday was the final show of my A BLUR tour in my hometown of Vancouver. It was at the Commodore, and it sold out 5 months in advance. I always told myself if that ever happened, having a big show sell out in advance, that I’d…