the disconnect

this next batch of songs is slowly coming together, but i’m almost afraid to go through all the demos i’ve written. i know “a day of organization” is necessary at this point, but every time i get to the studio i am tempted with “just one more demo today before I do that.” maybe i’m afraid there isn’t a real star in the mix yet, i’m not quite sure, but i can’t bring myself to do it.

is that what separates amateurs from professionals? the ability to do the boring days? the finishing of demos. the curation of what you’ve worked on. the deleting of work you’ve put your heart into that doesn’t serve the greater purpose of the project? some food for thought.

i think i’ve solved my dilemma with working with vocal parts i haven’t written. sometimes i feel this disconnect if someone pitches me a vocal. something deep down resists it. other than the occasional outlier… it all starts to feel hard to connect to. 

so i had an idea. i had coffee with another musician the other day. she sent me a bunch of old demos she had, just a folder. i ripped through them all and sorta pieced a new song together out of the unfinished demos. i liked this process. the selection on my end felt personal, it felt like i was making choices that only i would make. it freed me from lyrics that didn’t resonate with me, and finding special moments in things that she had written that maybe she had forgotten about. i think this is progress. going to continue to follow this. feels like a breakthrough.

happy holidays, however you celebrate :)

-felix

ps: i’ve added a few more shows, so grab tickets now and i’m also very excited for the sold out show in vancouver this friday at commodore with funkhunters! i’ve got a few things planned :)