arranging (is) my life

at least that’s how it feels these days. i’ve been working on this song that tegan and I started (of tegan and sara). she cut some vocal in my very basic studio the other day, singing to an old unreleased demo of theirs that i sampled. i really like the idea of the song, writing some new vocal inspired by something old of theirs that i’ve chopped up. a marriage of something past and something new. that feels fresh.

however, now i’m suffering from a bit of imposter syndrome wondering why the fuck i’m getting to work with people who have these distinguished careers, and i’m just here moving audio pieces around on a computer while sitting on a plane. am i even a musician? this is the exact thing tegan would tell me was bullshit and why we’ve got along of course, but it’s still hard to not think about sometimes. i want to make something special because i’m grateful for the chance to work with people who i look up to, but ultimately i’m intimidated that i will fuck it up. i’m currently 30,000 feet above Denver, flying home from Florida, so maybe the elevation is getting to me. maybe the song will never come out and go into the bin with the others. (i hope not.)

couple new things icymi -

1. b2b with lights pop up party

2. need your love piano version

till next week,

-felix