feel the rhythm

today feels like the first monday in awhile that i got my shit together. i woke up early, went for a 5k run in the below zero degree temperature. it was damn cold, but the feeling after… there’s no better feeling. i think it’s important to do things you don’t want to do. things that not everyone does. it keeps the muscle working. the discipline muscle. 

working for yourself is really just discipline. first you work hard enough to break free of whatever bullshit job u had and then you have to create enough discipline in your life to protect that freedom. maintenance mode. creating practices so that u can do whatever the fuck you want to do forever. but that comes with doing things you don’t want to do. there’s always a fucking catch hey. funny that.

i’m working on new music. a lot. i heard one of my really old songs in a store the other day, and it actually made me depressed. like i’m grateful it was playing, but i hated it? i know the “journey” is important and those past records got me to where i am today blah blah blah but like… fuck. i want to be better. i know there’s good records inside me, i need to stop playing it so safe. i keep saying to embrace your weirdness, maybe it’s time to take my own advice. i’m working really hard to be better. it’s all i think about.

-felix