maybe this will work?
i’m working through a lot of songs for the umpteenth time here. a big focus on just arranging things. arrangement can be really frustrating. i don’t know for sure if everything is right. i don’t know if there even is a right? i did have a breakthrough with a song temporarily titled stay with a breakdown that feels like the whole track dives under water. so i’m happy about that.
it’s hard to trust your gut, but i’m reminded that anyone whoever made something that became influential was generally confused by its success. i find that encouraging. i think we have to make things that are interesting to ourselves and nothing else. if others find it interesting as well, that’s a welcome bonus, but if you rely on what you think others will like and it fails, well now you have something that nobody likes. i guess it takes courage to standby something that “failed” and say “i still love it.” but i think that’s the kind of courage worth having.
music is a funny thing, throughout all the fanfare, the highs, the lows, the adventures, the rollercoaster rides of “moments.” it still always comes back to here. to this room. alone with an empty project file, asking myself. maybe this will work?
-felix