the frustrating nature of overproducing

been working on this fucking song now for maybe… 4 years? maybe more? it seems crazy. am i crazy? deep down i know something is in there that needs to come out. the themes are important to me. they feel authentic. the lyric is unique and the melodies really do it for me. and there’s a guitar part that i quite like.

the original production had a lot of charm but it lacked polish. the newer versions had polish but lacked charm. the latest version i’m convinced may now have finally found the correct balance. it feels the most ‘right’ it’s ever been since its inception. i’m not sick of it yet, so it passes the longevity test. however; am i sick of trying to get it right? yes. will it ever come out? fuck knows. maybe?

anyway, other than that song, the next one is done and submitted. we will be filming some things for it this week in whistler. i’ve been trying to direct my videos more. i like sitting down at a coffee shop and writing out each shot, how i want to it to look. feels a bit like painting a picture… how do i want to fill this frame? i’m trying to rely less on the edit and more on the prep. just pages and pages of notes that i have to parse through this week before we try to hammer it out on a budget that’s never enough. i do it for the love of the craft! <3

-felix

ps: my new mantra