idk

every time i try to finish these damn songs i play them back and find something wrong. i feel like i’m not a human listening to music sometimes. instead of hearing the song as a ‘whole’ i hear all the parts stacked on top of each other, and i am FULLY incapable of understanding if that stack of sounds will make sense to anyone. 

is this good? are any of these songs fucking good? 

i always feel like i could be that guy on american idol that thinks he’s having a real shot, but i’m actually the one they use to fill time on the program and make fun of. “let’s let this person pretend they’re doing it for real but to everyone else it will be a hilarious joke!” i always found that shit mean. i’m being dramatic probably, i just felt like writing something real this week. if i can’t be real in my own journal, what is the point of this? 

bad grammar and all sometimes i gotta hash it out

-felix

tour continues this weekend: dallas, atlanta and miami